If you had told me at this time last year I would be here I would be like, are you serious?
If you recall, I was in hair school...as you can see that worked out really well.
I am so happy things fell into place the way they did to bring me to Lakeside. I truly feel that this is where I need to be at this point in my life.
There are so many things I feel like I could say and I've hit backspace and typed approximately 9 sentences in place of this one, but this would turn into the worlds longest blog entry and quite frankly, I don't feel like writing an essay.
So instead of giving you a play by play of everything that has happened since my arrival, I will instead give you a brief synopsis and tell you how God is going to rock my world.
Arrival. Unpacking. Deep slumber and lethargy/hibernation with intermittent interruptions all day Thursday. Friday I got out of my room and trekked into town (Kalispell) with another girl who I found out was here and some staff. Saturday a ton of people arrived. Bonding. Found a ton of musical folk and played music til the cows came home. Just kidding no cows. Lots of music. Made friends. Still making friends.
I will however dig a little bit deeper into the events of my Sunday night sleep catastrophe because that leads me into what I feel will be a huge theme of the next 5 months.
Looks like you're getting an essay after all...
As I lay tossing and turning in my little bed on Sunday night it became the delicate hour of 1 am and I had reached the insomniacs stage of rage, you know, the one where you are so pissed that you can't sleep that everything infuriates you.
I was talking to Kara, and somehow my confidence got brought up. I was really annoyed because that was like the third time that had been brought to the table that day. The issue of loving myself, confidence, self esteem, and that was when I realized that was a huge thing I needed to work through.
One of my huge goals for this year is to break free from all the lies and all the hurt and to see myself truly as God sees me, and to love myself, and to exude confidence because I deserve to!
When I get a chance later I will post some key scriptures for me, and I will keep adding onto them.
Another really cool thing, if you know me at all you know that music is a very important part of me.
Well, this base is big into music and arts, and there are tracks that you can sign up for, so I have signed up to be a part of the music track. Basically, just something you do apart from your regular classes to learn how to use your passions in ministry. I am so excited for this. When I went to PLBC I was not ready for this, but now that I have had a couple of years, I really do think that I am somehow called to use music as a ministry tool, because God has given me that gift and I want to give back to him with it.
This blog is going to be a chance for those of you reading it to see my heart transparent because I really want you to see what God is doing for me while I am here, and if you're reading it...and if you've gotten to the end of this I know that means you probably care enough to see that in me.
Stay tuned cause it's only day two and God is already showing me so much.
xoxo
