Let's redefine what it means to heal

Hello everybody!

Turns out I am the worlds WORST blogger! Have you noticed??

I don't even know where to begin, so I guess I will split the weeks up into their own little paragraphs!

Also, I found out where I'm going for my outreach: NORTHERN THAILAND!!!!!!!!!!

FATHER HEART OF GOD
This week was all about learning how God really is your true Father. This week was huge for me. I have been spending a lot time searching for my identity in things other than God, and the huge word I got this week was that His name is my name. My identity is in Him. During one of our sessions the speaker asked us to stand up if people have called you arrogant or prideful, if you felt like that was your name. For some reason I felt like I was supposed to stand up, I really didn't want to...so I wrestled with it and then finally stood up. When the speaker saw me stand up, he looked at me and totally called me out "You, blondie in the back...I was hoping you would stand up. You weren't going to were you." And I don't really remember what he said after that, but one of our staff members came and prayed for me, and one of the things she prayed over me was that God said "I was never afraid to call you mine, I was never ashamed of you"

Psalm 56:8, Luke 6:21-22, Isaiah 41:10, Matthew 11:28-31 were all big verses for me that week.

"Freedom reveals your heart by the extremes we're willing to give."

God's love is:
A freeing love
Free from comparison.

THE BASICS OF CHRISTIANITY
Christianity is about public truth! It's about historical events and eyewitness accounts!
Our speakers for this week were Ron and Judy Smith who have both read the Bible cover to cover like a million times...not literally....but maybe because they've lost count. They are so wise and I have so much respect for them! One day I hope to have read through the Bible a few times haha... anyways.
This week actually made me want to read about other history from this time just so I could back myself up..it was all so interesting!

To inspire us to want us to read our Bible's more, Ron asked  us what our favorite food was, and then after our mouths were all watering he told us to pray this simple prayer whenever we ate "Lord, help me to love your word like my favorite food!"

Also during this week he gave us the verse Zephania 3:17 which I loved and really spoke to my heart.

On Wednesday night of that week (which was last week by the way), I was feeling really frustrated. Sometimes it's so annoying for me that God isn't tangible. I wish he could come scoop me up and give me a big hug and look me in the eyes and tell me I'm beautiful and that he loves me. Even though I should know that, it's hard to have faith sometimes. So the next morning I prayed that God would speak to me, like literally...with words. So the session began and first they made us rate our relationship with God...I didn't put down a number...but after talking about it for awhile, Judy opened up to the book of John.

In the book of John, John referred to himself as "the disciple whom Jesus loved",  because Jesus loved him, and all of us so much, if he were to rate his relationship with God he would give it a 10 out of 10. I probably didn't write that as clearly as I should have, but you get the idea.

Next they played a video (I don't remember what it was called or I would post a link for you) but it was about how we are God's beloved, and I felt like the guy in the video was speaking to me the whole time.
"You are my beloved, on you my favor rests"
"You are my beloved child"
"The voice who calls you beloved is the voice of the FIRST LOVE"
"I am the beloved daughter of God, even though I am rejected, that can become like a pruning."

I am my beloveds, and He is mine.

Needless to say, that prayer was answered!

Onto this week! MISSIONS!
"Jesus is for all people and nations"

Basically, they are telling us a lot about the history of missions which is super interesting for me, and also tonight we had a big session about unreached people groups which set me completely on fire for missions.

"Love so amazing, so divine, demands my life, my soul my all"

If you want to know more about this, let me know, I have a lot written down about said people groups and I can definitely find out more or send you links so just let me know!

"Every follower of Christ has the responsibility and joy of participating in the great commission"

Anyways, I think that I will leave it at that for now...my laundry is finished and it is late...yes that's right, I did my laundry!

xo